The Girl With Fire-Eyes
by Chris Killen
Raymond was a quiet, pale boy. At night he would walk for hours, around the
edge of the lake, past the ruins of the castle, down streets and alleys.
Sometimes he would walk down the centre of the town, where kids his age
would be sitting in the square smoking cigarettes. He needed to go down the
highstreet to get to the park. He would keep his eyes on the pavement hoping
they wouldn't notice but nearly always one or two would ride up on bikes and
block his path.
'Where are you going, Raymond?' they'd ask. They were boys from his
school.
'I don't know,' he'd answer, which was the truth.
Then they would take the piss out of him in some way or other, maybe
about his very plain-looking clothes or his long, wispy, uncut hair.
He found that if he just looked down and didn't say anything they would
get bored and leave him alone. He wasn't scared of the boys. He didn't
understand them but he never felt scared by them either. It was the girls
that scared him. The girls didn't speak, they just looked at him. He could
feel their eyes following as he walked past, on his way to the park.
Sometime he would look over and catch a glimpse of them. Their hair was
shiny and their clothes were tight fitting, showing off their small,
developing breasts. They would smoke cigarettes and chew gum and laugh at
the boys on the bikes. Sometimes, a boy and a girl would be kissing and
Raymond tried hard to imagine what it felt like.
He could never picture himself talking to those girls. They looked down
on him, perched like queens, following him with their empty soulless eyes.
As he got to the top of the park and looked down the path, where it blended
into the orangey blackness at the bottom of the hill, he would breathe a
sigh of relief, free from those scary, shiny girls.
It was a summer night, still light at eight o' clock, and Raymond was
walking down the path and into the park. He walked slowly, in no hurry.
Trees lined the edges of the path, casting grey shadows which twitched at
the branches shook, and he turned left at the bottom, cut across the grass
and over to the lake.
There was something about the lake which fascinated him. It's black
water spread out before him, bigger than a football pitch, would churn and
crash as if just for him. Most nights he wouldn't see another person in the
park and if he did, they would walk quickly through, unaware of the lake and
its magic water, dancing and shaking.
He sat down on his bench, the one nearest to the water. It was a still
night, the only sounds came from the road which cut between the park and the
castle - a faint hum of cars. He sat and waited for it to get dark.
An hour passed.
Then he heard something, it sounded like a cough, and a rustling in the
tall grass behind the bench. He looked over his shoulder and made out a
small silhouette walking towards him. He froze. It didn't look like one of
the boys from his school, the shoulders weren't broad enough. It moved with
grace, almost floated and as it got nearer he could see it was a girl, about
his age, dressed in jeans and a black buttoned shirt. Her face was pale and
round and her hair was black and messy, the same deep black as her shirt.
He couldn't move. She had him pinned with her eyes. They sparked in the
dusk like no other eyes Raymond had ever seen. She reached his bench and sat
down next to him, her slim figure just slightly smaller than his. He
realised that his mouth was hanging open. He closed it.
Up close, her eyes were even more intense. He couldn't tell if they were
red or blue or green or anything. They shone like lamps, lighting up his
soul.
He managed to break away from them and looked down at the grass, his
heart racing. Despite this, he didn't feel scared. He knew, somehow, that
she wasn't like the girls in the square or the girls in his school.
They sat in silence for a few minutes. The longer it went on, the less
strange it felt and slowly Raymond began to feel at ease again. He glanced
quickly at the girl and then back down at the floor. She was looking out at
the lake and a pale light from somewhere was shining on her cheek. Her skin
was pure and smooth. Her lips were pink and small and curled in a smile.
He looked at her again, longer this time, and she turned her head to
face him - eyes shooting out fire. His heart pounded. She was pretty, magic, perfect.
She started laughing. He looked at the floor, confused.
'You look so scared,' she said.
Raymond tried to think. He wasn't scared. He wasn't sure what he was.
'I like your eyes,' he said.
'Thank you.' She smiled wider and jiggled her legs, swinging her feet.
Raymond smiled too. Every nerve in his body was tingling. He felt
different, burning with excitement.
'You seem sad,' she caught his eye, piercing him.
He nodded. He told her about his school, about the boys and girls and
how he felt different to everyone. As he told her, it all fell away from
him, he didn't care anymore. She smiled again.
'What's your name?' he asked.
She didn't answer. Instead she reached over and took his hand in hers.
It felt very warm. Sparks shot up his arm to his brain. She shuffled up the
bench until she was right next to him and he could feel the warmness of her
leg, pressing against his. She leant forward, her fire-eyes got nearer until
they were burning him, and then she kissed him. His head swam as her hand
curled around his neck, under his hair. Her tongue pushed against his lips
and he open them and the fire flooded in, like love or sunlight. The lake
and the stars and the bench span and they kissed and kissed. He was nothing,
a speck of a star in the sky, burned up by this perfect black-haired angel.
He brushed her pale cheek with his hand and his thoughts melted like
ice-cream .. just love & fire & relief & understanding.
They finished kissing and Raymond sighed a long happy sigh. He lay his
head down in her soft, warm lap and slept.
Raymond woke. His face was touching the rough wood of the bench. He sat
up, not sure what time it was. He was cold. The lake was black, the sky dark
and star-pricked. He looked at his watch. It was twelve o' clock. He got up
and left the park.
That night, on his walk home, Raymond didn't feel sad. His legs and arms
sang as he walked. He didn't look down at his feet or the pavement. He
looked up at the sky and the stars and his mind shone and sparkled with new
possibilities.
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